THE END: আজীৱন তাই মোৰেই হৈ থাকিব….

Powa nopowar aali dumujat khuj karhi goi asilu. Odrishyo xoktiye muk xokti disile, xahox disile, aru atmobissakh disile. Tothapi monor bhoy nijor jagat bolisto hoi thio hoi asile. Ki hoy dekha jabo buli bhabilu, tai mur noholeu nai. Ekpokkhiya prem tu dujonor majot bhaag hoi jowar bhoy eta asile, kintu tai mur prostab nakos korile sun gutei khini prem mur hoi thakibo. Bhal he pam moi! Hoy enekua boliya hoi goisilu moi tair babe.

Tair ‘chat thread’ ot single tick pori asile. Sage xui porile. Kom nokom ke bhabilu koi thou. Ji hoy dekha jabo pisot. prithibir kuno xoktiye muk rokhabo nuware taik bhal powar pora.

“Block me at the moment u feel i am crossing my limits ok ? I am nobody to you. But you are everything for me. Misa kotha eku nokou ji kom xosa kom. I am sorry for whatever i am going to say. But we are matured enough to talk about all these. Seriously Snigdha, Nobody has ever made me feel so lucky, confident, being ME other than you. Nobody ever came this close to me. After everything i know about you, though i know you have hidden a lot of things from me, after you changed me to a very different person, I am falling deeply for you. Yes, miss Snigdha, you changed me a lot and not only gifted me a better version of myself but you gifted my parents a better son, the one they have been finding since many years. I know everything je tumi karu logot relationot ahibo nibisora..and i respect your decision, i respect your past and i respect you. More than that i care for you. I felt this special tingling inside me on the first day i talked to you on phone for 3 hours. And like an awara aashiq, i matched our kundlis. we match 30 out of 36. But thats something else. I always wonder, how on earth can you be so perfect. Everything about you is so damn perfect. How?

No matter what, i will take care of yours, i will make you smile till the day i breath, i will work hard for your aims, i will bring you success in everything no matter how hard it is, i will always respect your parents, respect your decisions, respect your anger, your mood swings, your “moi pagol hom aru” wala mood and all..trust me i will handle everything…every bad situation of yours and every good situation too. You taught me selfishness, yours was to look at the animals being happy…mine is to look at you being happy. I know, you are weird, you are psycho, you are next level savage, you are swaggy, you are imperfect. But all these are seen thru your eyes only. Ketiaba mur sokure sabo sesta kora…ebar please…xobdoye prokax koribo nuware o sob kotha. Sob janar pisoto. Nijoke bare bare rokhai lowar pisoto mon e namanile and i beg your pardon to say that i am in love with you. Please please please donot think i am forcing for anything. Moi just mur monot ghuri thoka kotha khini koisu.

Tumi mur howa ba nohowa…tumak xoday respect korim bhogobanor xoman. Agoteu koisu ajio kou. I promise

Tumi mur howa ba nohowa…tumar xoday care korim…nijoke xekh kori holeu tumak pagol hobo nidim. I promise.

Tumi mur howa ba nohowa…tumar aims bur fulfill korimei moi. Muk beya pai block kori dileu tumak moi help korim in any way possible. I promise.

Tumi mur howa ba nohowa…tumak xoday bhal pai thakim. Nisshwartho bhabe. I promise.

Kintu aaji moi mur sob kotha tumar xonmukhot tholu monot ji asil sob. Beya poale block kori diba. Bhal pale aru close ahibo sesta koriba. Ketiao nokou tumi mur hoboi lagibo. But hole….ki kom bhaxa nai eitu onubhob bujabo…

Just etay kotha, 10bosor pisot moi tumak tumar husband aru kids or logot sabo nukhuju. Yeah. Sorry for this. Xeitu ending mur lifeot nohole bhal. Eman strong nohoy moi.

Sorry for everything Miss Snigdha.

I dont know if i get to see the dp and “online” status after this. If not, dont worry i will fulfill your dreams on my side as promised.

If i get to talk to you tomorrow, we need to work hard on our plans.

I can never love someone like i love you. You deserve better. I am full of imperfections. But today i spoke everything that was in my mind. These feelings were growing since day 1 i thought infatuation hoy. Komi jabo. But nope. That became true love.

In the end. With a heart full of guilt for all the said msgs and a heart full of apology i will say

I LOVE YOU. I LOVED YOU. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. TRULY. MADLY. DEEPLY. CRAZILY. ENDLESSLY. INFINITELY. BOUNDLESSLY. UNCONDITIONALLY.”

Rati tu kiba ke par hol. Ukhol makhor buku aru Snigdhar sobi sokut loi kolgaru tu loi xui thakilu. Pisdina ratipua uthiye mobile tu salu, tai message bur sowa nasile. Bhoyote bhabilu sob message delete kori diu, kintu akou xahox eta jagi uthil je koisu jodi koisuye aaji delete nokoru. tothapi akou eta message dilu je eneke kowa tu hoy to usit howa nai. kintu monor kotha dangi dhorilu aaxa koru tumi bujiba buli. Aru xidina message bur delete nokora tu mur jibonor ataitkoi dangor bhul. Aajio bhabu, jodi xidina nidilu heten sage aaji mur jibon tu bohut bhal hol hoy. Akou bhabu je tai gom pai thole mur monor kotha khini. Nokole hoy tu gomoke napale heten.

Duporiya 12 ta baji 30 minute ot tair prothom tu message. Hridoyor kompon tibro begot! Ki dekha pam message ot!

“…So please. Moi aru kaku hurt koribo nibisaru. Moi nijeu hurt hobo nibisaru. Please buku I hate this word called love. I was sensing everything from your side. Keep me away from all these…..”

Eta bohut dangor message aru tate sob kol tai. Bhangi porisilu neki tair netibasok uttor ot ? Nai pora nasilu. Xei xomoyot moi nijor uporot joy lav korisilu je etiya taik moi aru besi ke bhal pabo parim. Aru hepah poluwai bhal pam. Karon etiya tair proti thoka bhal powa tu mathu mur, kebol mur. Kuno bhaag koribo naahe ei prem etiya. Karu majot bilai dibo nalage etiya ei prem.

Kisu xomoy pisot tai muk phone korisil, ki kom ki nokom ke phone tu uthalu aru xeitu phone call e dujonor jibon or baat xolai thoi dile.

Tair mur uporot khong asil aru nanan kothat ratipuwar pora tai ‘pagol hoi asil’. Pisot sob kotha gom palu jodio eku laav nohol gom pai. Tai mur uporot siyorisil xidina aru tair bhal bisari moi taik xanto korabo karone tair uporot siyorisilu. Ketiao koribo nukhuja kam eta kori pelaisilu. Ghrina jagisil nijor uporot. Tai tair gutei khini kotha muk siyori siyori kole. Bohut bujabo sesta korilu jodio tai nubujil aru oboxekhot moi u tair xonmukhot haar manibo baiddho holu karon kiba kobo khujilei tai siyorisil. Gom paisilu eitu jonomot tai mur ketiao hobo nuware buli. Tai jodio koisil je amar majot eku xoloni nohoy ketiao, kowa kotha aru bastob bohut vinno.

“…kintu tumak Promise koru je tumi koribo khuja prottek kamot moi xohay korim. Tumi mur lifeot thaka ba nathaka. Hazar kowa Snigda, Moi kora bhul tur pisot amar majot lahe lahe sob xekh hoboi hobo. Moi gom pau. Bhal ke gom pau. Sob badd di tumar psycho mood tu eri etiya kebol teolokor karone kam kora jak tumar nisina manuhor dorkar. Manuhor bhal bisari bisari nijoke herai pelaisa no. Etiya tumar xuddho aim burok nosto nokoriba. O moi bohut beya, tumi kowa nisina moi u eku emotions ok value nidilu tumar. Kintu edin tumi bujiba ki value disilu tumar bhalor karone. Aru tumar NGO r paper moi promise korisu no sob moi kori dim, indirectly sob collect kori holeu moi kori dim. This is my promise. Tumak bhal powa feelings e muk aru tumak ator kori dibo kintu tumar aims ok je bhal au xeitu sirojugomiya. Tumar proti thoka sob feelings o sirojugomiya hoy kintu aajir pisot kebol mur bhitorot thakibo sirodinor babe. Bare bare bhabisilu message bur delete kori diu, tumi ki ki bhugisa moi janisilu. tothapi ei mur mokkel mon tuye bujibo nuwaril. mur muror xuddho decision tuko dohon kori bhul kam tu koril aru tumak heruwai pelalu sage ekebare. Tumak bhal paisilu, pau aru pai thakim. Tumar eku khyoti nai no. Kora ji koriba. Tumar lifeot ketiao hamper nokoru. I promise. My promises are not meant to be broken”

Prem! Eti ononyo onubhob ? Hoy. Karba pokkhye bhal, karba pokkhye beya. Mur pokkhye bhal.

Duoye khong aru siyoror hesat pori kak kune ki kolu xidina eku bujibo nuwarilu. Moi teneke taik kio kolu, tai kio kole teneke sob jen eta rohosyo. Odrishyo xoktiye jodi milon bisora nasile tente kio nu eman usor sopai disile amak dujonok. Jibonot janu bohut xikkhya powa nai, aru kiman nu pam!

4ta maah par hoi gol. Amar majot phone ot kotha hoisil jodio agor nisina xoday howa nasil. Eiburor pisot xoptah ot eta call hoisil, kebol kam jorito. Kam ? hoy tair NGO r kam. Lahe lahe xoptah tu mahot xoloni hol. Aru 4 maah pisot, amar majot jugajog komi gol. Pisor bosor tai Medical ot chance pale buli gom palu. Bahirot medical porhibo gol aru tair medical or byostotar majot bilin howar babe facebook use nokora hol. Whatsapp number o change korile aru sage muk nidiu buli nidile ba pahurile je Buku naamor kunba tair jibonot asil.

Jibon or baat aguwai gol, Hridoyot etiyau etay naam- Snigdha. Kuno beleg suwali nahile mur jibonot aru tenekei kebata bosor otikrom korilu kebol aru kebol taik bhal pai. Hoy eituo bhal powar eta roop. Nisshwarthotar Prem. Muk taiyei xikaisil.

Taik moi kebol 20 din man log palu, tair sporxo onubhob korar xubhaiggo mur ketiao nohol. Tair jibonot moi kebol eta xunyo moi etiya. Aru mur hridoyot ajiu tair namei baax korise. Xosa ke bohut xukhi asilu moi. Muk pagol buli bhabisil, kintu kiba eta bostuye jodi muk xukh prodan kore, xanti prodan kore , aru tar babe jodi muk manuhe pagol koy tenehole moi beya napau.

Edin guwahatir batere goi thakute ekhon notun ke khula NGO r bigyapon dekha palu. Tair NGO, tair naam tu asile tate aru eta phone number. Call korute office ot uthale aru kothay kothay gom palu tair MBBS korar pisoto kuno hospital ot xumowa nasile, nijor NGO loi byosto asile. Eikhinio gom palu je NGO r kagoj or kam etiyau bohut baki asile.

Eman dine, moi ejon Biotechnologist hoi ulai ahilu USTM or pora aru MBA korilu distance ot. Nijor matribhumit kebatao business or logot gutei dekh bhromon kori beleg beleg rajyor laboratory burot nijor kam kori thaku. Aru…Aru xoru ke mur nijor eta NGO jot moi tair hepah aru iccha bur nije roop prodan kori xohai korisilu jib jontu aru dukhiya manuh.

Taik kotha diyar nisina ke tair NGO r kagoj or kam khini moi kori tair office loi pothai disilu, tair secretary k moi sob koisilu aru tai kotha disile mur kotha kaku nokobo buli. Snigdha aajikopoti gom napale je tair NGO r kagoj moi he disu. Taik aru besi bhal pai goi asilu. Tair biya barur kotha eku jona nasilu aru janibo icchao nasile. Mur babe tai murei hoi asil tetiao.

Jibon e 6ta bosor otikrom korile. Moi aajio tair naamorei uxah lou, tair namerei jiyai asu. Aajio tair secretary e kiba lagile muk jonay jitut moi xohay koribo paru. Kintu tair kotha eku kowao nai aru moi u nuxudhu. Edin ekhon sithi hatot poril. USTM or pora amontron potro, amar xomoyor atai khini satro satrik loi teuloke eta onusthan rakhisile.

Otit romonthon kori soboke log pai, sobore jibonor kotha gom palu, sobe xukhi, sobe bibahito, xidina sobe soboke log pai nakanda ke thakibo pora nasilu ami.

Monsor fale mukh di bohi asilu ami sobe. onusthan arombho hoi goisile aru amar ‘chancellor’ sir e amar kotha koi asile. Amar major pora sobe monsot goi nijor onubhob aru xofolotar kotha koi bhaxon dile aru tar majotei moi kiba eta onubhob korilu.

Ejak botah. Bohut sinaki botah. Xuwola, Moloya aru mridu mridu sinaki botah. Botahor naam Snigdha. Monsor thik pisfale ekhon ‘Ford Mustang GT’ gari ahi rokhile. Tenekua gari ekhon sai bohutor sawoni xifale halile. Garir dorja khular loge loge botah jak rudro hoi poril mur bab. Hridoyor dopdoponi barhi uthil. Ejur xeujiya kapur pindhi thoka suwali jonir bhori khon dekha palu. Gari khonor engine tu bondho hol. Aru taik dekhilu. Mur Snigdha. Xei ekei Snigdha, Xei moi bhal powa Snigdha. Tai gari khonor pora nami jatrir falor dorja khon khulile aru tate hali xumale. Bhal ke gom powa nasilu ki korise tai.

Tai eta xoru lora kolat loi ulal xei thair pora. Tair lora. Snigdhar lora…Mur Snigdhar lora…

Eibar sokuye pani rokhabo nuwarile. Hridoy khon haan mari dhorisil, mon tuye siyori siyori khyoma bisarise. ki lav ? bohut deri hoi gol. Ami douye kio kaku ketiao log nokorilu, kio ketiao phone nokorilu nombor jugar kori ami najanu. Milon howa amar bhaiggot likha nasile. Sob USTM ot arombho hol aru aaji jibonor ataitke dangor dukh tuo USTM e dile. Tothapi mone haar mona nasile. Tothapi moi xukhi tair puwali tuk kolat lowat tair hahi dekhi. Tai xompurno hol oboxekhot. Mur prem adhoruwa thakil. Oha jonomot nedekha jone xompurno kori dibo mur prem. Mur bissakh. Tai xompurno howa dekhi moi nijok akowali loi xompurno holu.

“Tumi tothapi mur ontim prem hoi thakiba Snigdha” buli siyori kom buli bhabio xanto aru nirob thakilu.

Lahe lahe tai aguwai ahil mur fale. Sage sini powa nasile muk. Moi nijei aguwai golu tair fale, tai dekhile muk, jibonot prothom baror babe monor pora hahisilu taik dekhi. Taiu hahisile. kintu hahi tu jen adhoruwa….

“Sini paisa Snigdha?” buli kolu aru hath khon aguwai dilu.

Xeya asile Snigdhar aru mur prothom sporxo. Kothare aru xobdore onubhob prokax kora oxombhob.

Tair soku klanto aru uka asile moi dekha palu.

“Paisu Buku”

“Lora ?” puwali tur fale sai xudhilu

“Umm. Lora”

“Bhale asa”

“Asu diya…Tumi?”

“Asu aru xei ekeita naamor babot jiyai asu- SNIGDHA”